Last night Courtney and I said goodbye to Sonja. She had been in pretty rough shape for quite a while and she had some bad breathing trouble last night and I knew it was time. We took her to the vet and laid on the floor with her while she went to sleep. She went very peacefully and I am so glad that I could be there with her.
The first picture I ever posted to this blog was of Sonja, in a laundry basket, just being Sonja.
I’ve known this was coming for a long time. She’s been on a downhill slope for a few years now and this past year was very rough. Even though I thought I was prepared, nothing could have prepared me for this pain. I miss her so incredibly much. I can’t fit a world into my mind where she isn’t with me. It’s so easy to slip into a train of thought where I’ll see her again and it hurts so much.
I want to write more, but I can’t find the words. Maybe when the pain has dulled a bit. I know it will, although right now it doesn’t feel like it.
For now, goodbye my sweet girl. I love you, I miss you and I’m so glad I got to spend all the time I did with you. You were everything to me, and I will never be whole again.